Saturday, August 26, 2006

My version of "The Good LIfe"

After much prompting from many friends and family members, I have finally entered the world of blogging!

The Guth Life is my version of "The Good Life". It is funny how life has a way of turning out just how you wanted, but not at all how you thought it would be. Ever since I was a little girl, like most other little girls, I dreamed of one day marrying my prince and spending the rest of my days as the best mom ever to my perfect children. It is funny how everything seems so easy when your little. Then, as you get older you realize the things that you wanted when you were little are the same things you still want now, except somehow getting them becomes a lot harder.

I remember Melissa and I sharing a room on a family trip to the Ricks beach house in Carlsbad, CA just before her and Craig got married. I think I was doing my best at being an annoying little sister and was teasing her about changing her name. She decided to get back at me by informing me that my future husband was Mr. Magoo, making me Miranda Magoo and my children little Magoos. Little did she know after teasing me for years about whether or not I had met Mr. Magoo yet, I would become a Guth instead. It is funny how with all the name combinations I put together for myself over the years I somehow never wrote Miranda Guth all over a notebook, just to see how nice it looked. But, what do you do if your prince's name is Mr. Guth? I laugh everytime we ask London what her name is and she proclaims proudly, "London Goose" she then informs me that I am "Mama Goose", I guess Melissa wasn't far off with Mrs. Magoo. Little does London know that she shouldn't worry about pronouncing her name correctly because no one else ever will either.

So, I got my prince, "a rose by any other name still smells as sweet". Let the fairy tale begin, right? Isn't this when all the happily ever after begins? I watch a lot of princess movies and read even more princess books these days, isn't it ironic that they always end with the prince and princess's wedding, riding off into the sunset, or some other equally romantic setting. I don't think it is by mistake that they leave out all the years afterwords and that they would never dream of showing you the prince and princesses children who I like to image as being ten times worse then my own. So, I got my prince and rather than the fairy tale, THE GUTH LIFE began!

I should clarify that this isn't a bad thing because after all, we all know fairy tales aren't real, The Guth Life is just a little more work then my little girl mind imagined when I dreamed of how my life would be. Who knew that getting married was just the beginning? Who knew that by the time my "perfect daughter" was two I would already be reading Supernanny's book trying to figure out where I went wrong. The good news is that while I am reading Supernanny who tells me it is all about my parenting, I am also reading Freakonomics in which economist Steven Leavitt informs me that from his research parenting only accounts for 50% of your childs behavior and 50% is their own personality and abilities. I figure I'm pretty safe since all her bad qualities must just be the way she was born and all the good qualities have come from my excellent parenting. Yet, as I fight to get London to sleep in her bed night after night and after trying to control yet another tantrum I can't help but think, "Is this really what I dreamed motherhood would be?". Isn't it interesting that the one thing I've wanted more then anything since I was a little girl playing with my dolls is the one thing in life I'm just not very good at. I look at my two beautiful girls and wonder if they realize how lucky I feel to have them, yet how insignificant I feel in being the one trusted with their care.

I still want nothing more then to be the best wife and mother I can be, if anything that wish has only increased since actually becoming them. I wouldn't trade THE GUTH LIFE for all the fairy tales in the world, it is "THE GOOD LIFE", but who knew you had to work so hard to get it. I guess it is true that the best things in life are the things we have to work the hardest at.

So, as I begin my blog, I will keep you updated on the craziness I call THE GUTH LIFE!